Uncomfterably in CONTROL

So you could ask anyone who has known me for an extended period of time, and they will tell you that I am not an emotional person....haha buuut apparantly doing intense yoga daily has opened up a whole new side of me....tonights class I honestly felt like letting my legs run me out of the class screaming at the top of my lungs! My head was screaming a million different thoughts of anger, fear, sadness, happiness, excitment all at once all emotions I had no idea I was even feeling!!!! My towel on my mat was starting to feel like it had been soaked in boiling hot water and was burning my skin, and my breathing wanted to make me feel as though I was hyperventating........JUSTT BREATHE were the words that snapped me out of this 5 second traumatizing thought process....LOL it was amazing to feel so much in such a short amount of time to let it all go to feel good again!!!!  haha so the class continued and we got to the final floor series and again I had 5 seconds of  more emotion take over my body and mind.....I remembered what one of the teachers had said in a previous class that feelings are only temporary and that we need to let ourselves feel them to move forward....so for a few moments I let myself feel so uncomterably in control...I was in control of my own uncomfort...how often can we say that?! to sum this up....I just experianced the worst and best class of my practice...and was able to remind myself that we all control our actions and we are our best saviours at bringing our minds back to feel grounded. I find it amazing how it can be so easy to let our minds go away from the room and want to escape the heat...the heat we all are constantly craving especially living in this winter world of calgary! why is it we constantly are desiring what we dont have in front of us????  but another thing the instructor said in the first class i took today was that who we are in the yoga room...is who we are outside of the yoga room.....its usually the point when it gets to be so hard you want to quit is the most productive part of our lives, the breaking point of success and challage, do you let yourself put in effort to just quit? or do you take every ounce of energy you have inside of you to go that extra mile, to take a step further then you thought you can, to breathe in more life, and inspire not only others, but yourself by your capabilities? .....Where do you stop? When do you give in? think about that...if your answer is anything but never, ask yourself why?....figure that out and challange yourself to keep going when it seems impossible...i promise that you will see a change in everything you do!!!!

Well to sum this up/....dont be ashamed to feel.....dont be scared to fall....dont be embarased to be yourself!! Dont ever give up ;)
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Namaste ;)

-Crystal!
-C!